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As a man we are brought up believing,

Not to express all we feel in our heart.

Therefore often deep words of emotion,

Are not very easy for me to impart.

But I am not embarrassed to tell you,

What a wonderful friend you have been.

And I want you to know from my heart,

What having you as a friend does mean.

In my youth you were always right there,

To give me your caring and helping hand.

You picked me up and "dusted me off",

And back on my two feet I would land.

Not only have you been a friend,

but you are a brother from another mother.

You’ve always treated me as a best friend.

And u mean alot to me.

We’ve had differences, like everyone else,

But the closeness we feel could never end.

All the things we shared while growing up,

I still hold so dearly in my heart even today.

We’re no longer the children we were then,

But I can still count on you the same way.

If I had been given a choice of friends,

I would’ve still chosen you as the one for me.

Cause u are the BESt that ever could be.

"I LOVE U my brother"

I hold you in my heart, Where you hear me whisper, "I love you".

At night when I imagine, Your face, Your eyes, Your voice, Softly speaking. I feel like I’ve looked into your eyes, Forever, Looked at you continually between eternities of sighs.

I can hear you breathing, In my imagination, each day. You stand beside me in happiness, And in sadness, And you don’t even know you’re here.

I don’t know how to give you my heart, How do I wrap it, So that you can accept it? How do I sing my songs to you? How do I make you understand? How do I give the stars to you, Without cutting my hands on their edges?

My mind cannot speak for my heart, And my mind cannot choose for my soul. Across the distance, And the darkness, And the night, I send my love to you, On wings of despair, Crying to the gods, That you are mine…*mine mine mine*. And a song of love plays, I wrote it for you(LFT), In my heart, Where I tell you a million times, "I Love You"

All through my life I’ve felt so alone
Like no one was there, no one was home
I ask over and over and over again
How wrong are my words, how deep is my sin

Sometimes things happen I cannot explain
I am so depressed I have so much shame
Fears build up inside so deep
If you reap what you sew, do you sew what you reap?

Every tunnel has a light at the end
But such dreadful scars will never mend
Lonely I sit and try to hold on
And watch people die out, slowly…one by one

Is it all worth it, this life that we live
We just do what we can, and give what we give
I’ll show you my pain if you show me yours
And hope that one day I can open the doors

We are here now and we must seize the day
And all others will get whats coming their way.

Rescue me not only with your hands but with your heart as well.
I will respond to you.

Rescue me not out of pity but out of love.
I will love you back.
Rescue me not with self-righteousness but with compassion.
I will learn what you teach.
Rescue me not because of my past but because of my future.
I will relax and enjoy.
Rescue me not simply to save me but to give me a new life.
I will appreciate your gift.
Rescue me not only with a firm hand but with tolerance and patience.
I will please you.
Rescue me not only because of who I am but who I’m to become.
I will grow and mature.
Rescue me not to revere yourself to others but because you want me.
I will never let you down.
Rescue me not with a hidden agenda but with a desire to teach me to trust.
I will be loyal and true.
Rescue me not to be chained or to fight but to be your companion.
I will stand by your side.
Rescue me not to replace one you’ve lost but to sooth your spirit.
I will cherish you.
Rescue me not to be your pet but to be your friend.
I will give you unconditional love.

Rescue me with true love in your heart,
and I will give you these things all the days of my life.

I am so…stressed up. I need a BIG hug.

NO DAYS OF GOLDEN HOURS SPENT

WE GIANTS, QUEENS AND KINGS.

WE SENTINELS WHO RULED THE WORLD

CARESSING DAISY RINGS.

I LOOKED FOR SKIES OF FIFTY FOUR

AND SMILES OF BRIGHTEST SUN,

FOR MAGIC SPELLS WHICH KEPT ME THERE,

BUT NOW NO RIVERS RUN.

THEY RUN NO COURSES THEY ONCE RAN

INTO THE SNOW WHICH FELL

ON DUSTY HILLS OUR MOUNTAIN HOMES

ON WHICH MY TEARS ONCE FELL.

MY TONGUE NOW PARCHED, MY EYES NOW BLIND

I TASTE NOR SEE NO TRUTH,,

SO I JUST TURN AND WALK AWAY

SEARCHING FOR LOVE.

I really dont know whats happening to me…why do i keep having flashback and this breaks me down. Like a glass i shatter to pieces…

i wind up my watch
when it need no winding
i puzzle harder puzzles
than my mind can comprehend
BY this simple act
i manage for a time to
ward of facing yet another
confrontation………..

To many heartbreaks to go through, to many to bare

My simple and easy question is, "does anybody care?"

Is there someone that will tell me I mean the world to them?

Is there someone that will tell me they’ll be there ’till the end?